I'm back to work tomorrow evening, after a week of high emotional and physical pain that has left me devoid of power, strength, energy, vavavoom!...whatever you want to call it. My get up and go has got up and gone. I've been trying desperately to recharge my batteries prior to going back to work - with little success. The everyday, hum-drum 'normal' daily activities of life have conspired to keep my power levels at a steady zero. No amount of rest - and believe me, I've had plenty of that, - has worked to reduce my exhaustion and I've been going to bed exhausted and waking exhausted. No recovery. Not one jot. I think I need to replace my battery or, better still, replace my whole body with a new model!  I long for the days when I had that model of body that could do everything all day - work full time, drive at 8am for 28 miles to the office, sit in meeting after meeting, drive 28 miles home at 5pm then take the family out for a meal, or go shopping fo

I've had an odd week, choc full of emotional stresses and extra hard additional hours at work! Despite experiencing extreme fatigue I bravely (stupidly) agreed to do an extra long shift at work - 9am until 6pm on Monday and, despite pacing myself diligently, I have been paying the price ever since. Pain levels have been at a steady eight - specifically my lower back, hips and hands. And, speaking of hands, I uncovered a worsening of my Raynaud's Syndrome this week when my hands turned blue - this caused a niggling doubt, that grew into a fit of anxiety that it wasn't just down to Raynaud's and I convinced myself that I had a clot somewhere making my circulation suffer (I tried my best to steer away from Googling the symptoms - but my wife was also concerned and did it on my behalf! I wish she hadn't!) Needless to say, I now have a 'Well Man' health MOT booked in for next Friday! Wednesday saw me attending my fourth funeral in two years - a colleague fr