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It's Been A While......Again!

I've been having a few problems recently. Well, for the past eight months, if I'm honest.

I'm struggling with who I am. What I am, and what the hell I'm doing with my life.

I have so much going on - busy and fractious relationships at home, hectic workload at work, and my mind is constantly whirring with it all. I don't know if it's me, my illness or something else. I can't seem to focus on the good stuff over the bad.

Sure, my pain has been at an all time high. My days are full - even though, to some, they would seem quite empty. I think my life is busy, so busy, but when I sit down and analyse what each day amounts to I get a whole load of nothing. 

I still work. My pain threshold is reached by the middle of the first shift each week. I used to do three shifts, but I lost my PIP (A UK benefit paid to disabled folk) in April, and my appeal is currently with HM Courts & Tribunals, so it's been a long haul, and not over yet. Because of losing my PIP I ha…